I know you had told me that this wasn't necessary, that this wasn't what you wanted, or maybe even that it wouldn't be the same given all that has happened. Yet, I suppose to me, I disagree. I do think it's necessary because you are a person who deserves the world, and part of that world should be a worthy birthday.
I feel like we've had this discussion so much recently, but the truth is that I've been working on this card all along. It could have been nicer, I think, but to me it looked the coolest. For some reason, I felt like it would be telling of the thought, attention and overall detail I'd put into your birthday.
When we fell -- what was it? only nine months ago? seems like an eternity by now -- we fell hard. Everything is extreme with us, and that has been true throughout our relationship. In the beginning, it was extreme lust. In the middle, extreme love. Currently, it's been extreme combativeness. Yet, I don't think that's an indication of failure or a falling out of love. I believe this is just an extreme for the time until we find another extreme to settle into. And then we shall find another, and so on and so on.
I've found myself searching in the depths of my heart recently to understand what it is about us that pulls us and ignites my love for you. I am still as clueless today as I was when we first started this journey. I believe I've come to the realisation that maybe that's just how our love is meant to be: extreme and clueless. Ha!
In all seriousness, I am so thankful for you and all you've accomplished in year 28 of your life. To me, it is the best year because it is the one you met me in. Still, I am excited and ready to see what you will accomplish in year 29. And words cannot describe how honoured I am to be able to share it with you firsthand.
I feel like we've had this discussion so much recently, but the truth is that I've been working on this card all along. It could have been nicer, I think, but to me it looked the coolest. For some reason, I felt like it would be telling of the thought, attention and overall detail I'd put into your birthday.
When we fell -- what was it? only nine months ago? seems like an eternity by now -- we fell hard. Everything is extreme with us, and that has been true throughout our relationship. In the beginning, it was extreme lust. In the middle, extreme love. Currently, it's been extreme combativeness. Yet, I don't think that's an indication of failure or a falling out of love. I believe this is just an extreme for the time until we find another extreme to settle into. And then we shall find another, and so on and so on.
I've found myself searching in the depths of my heart recently to understand what it is about us that pulls us and ignites my love for you. I am still as clueless today as I was when we first started this journey. I believe I've come to the realisation that maybe that's just how our love is meant to be: extreme and clueless. Ha!
In all seriousness, I am so thankful for you and all you've accomplished in year 28 of your life. To me, it is the best year because it is the one you met me in. Still, I am excited and ready to see what you will accomplish in year 29. And words cannot describe how honoured I am to be able to share it with you firsthand.
With all my love,
Niall
